My beautiful Shirl I have tried to fight the feelings
And emotions l now have inside
That fill and terrify me,
Like a fast raging tide.
There are long periods of pain,
Of sorrow, guilt and hate,
Leaving me to dwell upon
Into the hours so late.
I love you so so much my Shirl
And It's your physical presence I miss.
I will always long
For that one final kiss.
But the greatest pain of all
That hurts me so deep,
Is after giving you all my love
I know l will never have yours again makes me weep.
To have you again by my side
Always longing for more,
And have you feel the same,
So we can mutually adore.
Now you can see, my beautiful Shirl, how your passing has broken my heart
And revealed the depths of my soul,
And now I am left feeling hopelessly empty,
Paying with this immeasurable toll.
Some will think it’s so selfish, I know
To feel this way,
But it's how I feel
Each and every day
Always hoping and praying
For the next time we meet
For you to make me, once again
To feel complete.
And rest assured,
We WILL meet again,
For it's not a question of if,
But only a question of when.
And when that time comes
I will be again in total bliss,
For no longer will I have to wait
For that one final kiss.
John
2nd February 2018